Went to trade in my SUV to buy something more economical yesterday.  I've been looking for months and I finally found the 4cyl I've wanted.  Yesterday I was going to do the deal.  The salesman comes back and says my trade is worth $3,500.00 less than what it was 2 months ago at a different dealer.  Why is it whenever I leave a dealership I feel like I've been bent over and fucked straight up the ass?

I ate half a watermelon, some potato chips and half a tin of chocolate covered altoids tonight.

In the 4th grade we studied Native Americans. We went on a field trip to a camp that had several stations set up in the woods to teach us how the Native Americans lived. I remember it being really fun. I was having such a blast. We came to a station set up like a workshop. It had various tools the N.As used to make food, clothing, etc. They told us to be very careful because the tools were actual artifacts. But I still thought we could use the tools. I ended up breaking a sort of hammer clear in half. No one saw me do it, so I put the pieces in a position where it looked liked it hadn't happened. I remember my heart pounding as I got back into line to proceed to the next station. We were confronted by the tour guide and I felt like I would throw up. 5 years of Catholic school had trained me to fear punishment. I was terrified. I felt like God was looking down at me, shaking His head because I failed to admit that I had broken the tool. I carried guilt around all year long. Right now as I write this I am holding my breath and my throat tightens because I can still remember how I felt that day.


Stupid Religion and its boyfriend Guilt. I spent a YEAR feeling guilty and sinful because I broke a piece of stone, which actually looking back, was no real artifact. May seem like a stupid story, but the guilt was like that with everything. I will NEVER send my daughter to Catholic school. I want her to feel safe and secure enough in herself to admit fault. Not fear the wrath of hell for breaking a stupid piece of stone.

I love my dad, but I hate how much of a radical, right-wing, Fox News-watching conservative he is. He's brainwashed my sister into being just as much of a closed-minded conservative as he is. They listen to no other opinions other than those of the Bush Administration, Bill O'Reilly, and an assortment of other Republican douchewads. They're so fucking smug about it. 'Liberal' is a dirty word in my Dad's house.

I'm a Moderate, but I really want to register to vote as Democrat just to piss him off.

And I really, really want to burn the fucking Bill O'Reilly books my sister has on my bookshelf.

FUCK!

I hate my boyfriend's mom more than anything.

I wish she'd quit trying to be so fucking controlling of him. He's 21 for God's sake!

Yes, ma'am, we do engage in premarital sex, and we love it! You think I just want to get pregnant by him, but it's funny how this relationship has lasted almost 4 years, and no children in sight. I don't even fucking want kids.

So fuck you, you uptight cunt. I'm sick of you treating my like shit just because you don't think I'm "good enough." He thinks I'm good enough, and that's all that matters!

I'm so tired.  I'm only staying awake to talk to you online.

Even though I'm SO freakin tired.

I introduced you to gmail.  

I sent you a gmail invitation so that we could talk easier.  You're married and we can only talk through emal most of the time - so almost 2 years ago I sent you the invitation.

After a few months we realized the chat feature.  We even used it to have cyber sex when I went away to school.  We used it to talk that night that night till 4 in the morning when we were both crying.  We had our whole relationship centered around gmail because we only got to see each other a few times a week outside of work.

Now for the first time in months I see you signed into the chat again.

I think you're using it to talk to another girl - not just me.

My heart has been so broken for so long.  You've broken me.

you have no idea how fucking pissed off fuming i am right now!!!!!! omfggggg i can clearly see im not ur top priority. ur still at ur fucking friends house fucking 2 hrs already!!! and im the fucking scumbag here waiting til u get here i want to break ur face so bad right now i would never do that shit!!!!!!

So far today has left me feeling like an old bag of crap. A bag of crap that previously thought it was an awesome bag of crap.

I can't wait to see what the rest of the day has to bring.

Nick E.
Since I met you last year, you have made my days so much brighter.
I swear that as soon as I get to New York City I will get a Lion King Doll for your sister and I will bake you a giant “face cookie” I will never forget all the small things you did for me. You made me fall in love with tech and backstage work all over again. I will never forget all the inside jokes, laughs, sweat, tears, and blood. (Just kidding about the last two. Ha!) You are part of a group of elite people that will forever stay in my heart. So as years past and memories fade, I will never forget you.

Much love now and forever on,

Natashia L.

Starting Monday, I will prove to all of the people the have done me wrong that I can amount to something good. Monday will be the start of the rest of my life. What will I be doing tomorrow? Planning.... Lots of planning.
Wish me luck.

Please help us grow. The more you mention CaveCanum, the more secrets people will post.

Much appreciated if you could send an email to a friend or give a mention on a chat board.

Even if you have mentioned it once on a chat board, please do it again. People will thank you!

We thank you.

I LIKE FUCKING GIRLS, ALRIGHT!?! Why can't you stop being such conservative bitches and get the hell over it? I LIKE FUCKING GIRLS!

i miss you
2000 km away.

My life choices so far should be used to write a book about how not to live life.

I don't want to just divorce my wife.  There would be no satisfaction in letting her act selfish for all these years and then she gets to simply walk away. That wouldn't be fair.  She spends all our money on herself for clothing and fancy dinners and impressing the neighbors.  But mostly clothing.  I buy a new shirt maybe every year.  She buys a new outfit maybe every few hours.

So here's my fantasy plan:

- In the evening when she is out with her girlfriends (yet again), I gather up all my clothes and pack them in my car.

- Then once she comes home in her drunken state (after spending my hard earned money on $100 bottles of wine with her friends), I let her fall asleep and then I get to work.

- I sneak into her closet and take it all, every stitch of clothing.  I take all the blankets and sheets out of the linen closet and the guest room.  I remove all the curtains from every room.  I take away the dish towels and table clothes.  I even removed all the newspapers.

- In the morning when she gets up, she rolls out of bed and gets in the shower.  I take the blankets and sheets off our bed.  I slip into the bathroom while she is still occupied in the shower.  I remove the towels and her pajamas.

- I disconnect the phone line from down in the basement. I take her car keys.

- Then I leave the divorce papers on the kitchen table and drive away.

When she gets out of the shower, there will not be a single piece of clothing or fabric item or covering of any sort in the entire house.  She will be naked.  The queen of fashion will have only the emperor's new clothes. And she can't even call her friends to come over or drive to their house.

She would be forced to walk to the neighbor's house stark naked.  This woman who is always dressed in the most expensive and stylish get-ups would be wearing only shame.

A fitting end for our ill-fitting marriage.

I keep checking my e-mail every five minutes... as if i'm expecting that I have people who will actually send me e-mails.

It wasn't until I started watching amateur porn videos on the internet that I finally remembered some woman actually enjoy sex. For the last decade I was brainwashed by my wife into thinking sex was something horrible that you only did because you had to every once in a while, kind of like taking out the garbage.

The only way I can get over someone is to start hating them, but I don't think I can hate you.

I hope your cancer is very painful.

I lied. It WAS my toast that nearly set off the fire alarm.

I think the biggest practical joke in history is Jesus. I can't believe you all fell for it!

You're all I think about now. I wish you were here. I want to make you laugh and smile, fall in love together. Where was this courage when I needed it?

At my funeral, when I'm dead and painted up in my casket, I want everyone to laugh, smile and have a good time as if we were hanging out just like any other old day. I'll still be there, only silent. Best way to say goodbye.

Isn't it amazing that someone can sweep you off your feet in an instant. But that same person can make your world come crashing down in an instant too!

I did absolutely nothing for the fourth of July but in reality it was the best ever because I decided that this independence day I was going to start my life over and take care of myself and eat healthy and go to the gym and try to be nicer to others.

We sit next to each other in a coffee shop but don't speak to each other. He's always working on his laptop with headphones on. You'd never know we're supposed to be a couple. Typical Saturday night.

Say, wanna have some fun? Send a picture of yourself holding a sign with a secret on it for the upcoming gallery. Don't want to show your face? That's okay. Feel free to be creative, show your fingers or toes or elbows. Racy is even okay. Just as long as it is a picture with a secret.

Come on give it a try. It would be fun.

I'm starting to regret my lack of morals..

I wish I could go to work stoned. The day would go by much nicer if my brain were just a little bit baked. I would just let stuff roll off my back. Laugh at stuff that in reality is just not that important. No one was killed, just a little put out. If I could toke up at work (and yes, you could join me), fuck, I would love getting up everyday.

I'm secretly embarrassed to be part of a great big Catholic family.  Everyone assumes that we're poor, and we get shown off like a herd of show dogs at every family event.

I can't even describe how irritating it is when they line us up and photograph us, and my mother beams like a saint when she's really all fecund uterus and empty head and ENDLESS neediness, and my father beats his chest like he's some great potent uberbreeding stud when he was never even there when we were growing up.  Yep, but they won the biomass arms race because there are eight of us.  It doesn't matter that none of us can stand each other.

I love going it alone in the world, without being part of that dog and pony show.  Relatives are always asking me "When are you going to get married and have babies?"

How about NEVER?  I've had enough of 'the ties that bind' strangling me.

Tomorrow is my birthday. to celebrate, I think i'm going to go buy a pack of razor blades and cut the shit out of myself.

happy fucking birthday to me.

to celebrate the 4th of july i ate taco bell

This is the first day of the rest of my life!  Independence day from all the people in my life who fucked me over! I am finally free!

I should have driven home today. Not come back to 'our' place. Honey, I know where this is going. I don't think you do yet. Things have been falling apart for a while. When you realize it, let me know. Don't lead me on. Don't pretend. Just let me go. Don't try to save me. I don't want to be saved anymore.

its not been long, but i love you. just the way you are.

I am sitting here fighting for my life.  I am a walking time bomb.  I never thought I would have to tell my exe husband my plans for my death if it should come.  I sit here scared shitless out of my mind, not knowing if I will end back up in the hospital again and to never come out.  My daughter, my precious daughter what will she do without me?  It brings tears to my eyes knowing that she may not have a mother when she graduates from school. I might end up not seeing her first boyfriend or crush, her first heartbreak.  I know that I may not be there for her.  My best friends, my god, they don't know how I am feeling right now thus is my secret. But, I have lived a life that many have dreamed of living and no not in sense of money but in the sense of finding onesself and accomplishing things from the inner being of one person.  In the end, I can actually say that I know who I am and lived to say I actually found happiness with me and I showed my daughter this at least I can give that to her.

our friendship ended four years ago. it only survives in zombie form cuz you live far away so we still talk on the phone. i dont even want u as my maid of honor anymore. your self-centered, arrogant, shallow, and u only want me around as the fat friend that makes u look pretty by comparison. u call me when im at work like its an emergency, and when i worry and call back all u wanna do is talk about yourself or the hot guy at work u wanna fuck. u never ask me how im doin, and u always try to bring up politics knowin were on opposite sides so u can bully me for my beliefs like bill oreilly. u complain when things dont go ur way and u make people plan their time around ur schedule. when u get pissed u call someone over and over again to yell at them, and u wont back the fuck off. u humiliated me in front of my family by calling me in the middle of a reunion to yell at me cus u thought i was tryin to ditch u, like ur my ballbusting girlfriend or somethin. u keep makin my friends uncomfortable by hitting on them when theyre not interested and talkin about your stupid fucking seamed stockings and how hot u look in them. youre just like sheryl david on curb ur enthusiasm. ur frendship is a cross to bear. i dunno how we managed to stay friends over 10 yrs, cus really if i met u for the first time today id want nuthin to do with u.

I am going to be on e of those people who kidnap my own kids and then run off to South America.  My spouse failed me.  The system failed me.  Good bye America.

Dear Mum,

   Please try and kill yourself again.  Only this time please oh please get it right and die.  

Love, your faithful children - all of us!

I can't believe they got an invite and I didn't. Ya knowcheers, known ya for almost 20 years and I don't get an invite to your wedding, and he knows ya for 1 and not particarly well and gets an invite. Dya know what never get in contact with me ever again.

I know the reason you got hitched so quick, so mummy doesn't find out what a naughty girl you've been by getting pregnant outside marriage. Daughter of a church elder.

I respect your beliefs and the fact that you have beliefs. I respect that we can feel differently about these things, even though you would not respect my true beliefs because you wouldn't understand them and have been manipulated in your simplistic mind to believe that any beliefs other than your own are the "devils work".

I am a very tolerant, forgiving person. I am diplomatic to a fault. I will bend over backwards not to judge you or anyone else for being who you are.

But when it comes to Obama being the antichrist, California burning because of God being angry about gay marriage, or "Muslim terrorists blowing themselves up so they can reach Nirvana"(aaaaaaa Nirvana is a Buddhist concept - TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT RELIGIONS!!!) I really have to almost go into a state of denial to accept that you can support these ideas. Honestly, I think it's complete insanity and I don't know how to respond to it or you. I try to avoid these subjects, but when they arise I just don't even know how to deal with it.

Maybe I should just tell you how I feel and let the chips fall where they may...

But my ego isn't ready to lose you.

Suicide doesn't help anything, it just slows down the process.

Please live your life.

YOU ARE GOING TO DIE ANYWAY!

We all are.

I have yet to see the new King Kong movie in its entirety. I've tried about four times and can never stay awake. I can tell you how it begins, and I can tell you how it ends, but not much of what's in the middle.

America is so screwed up.
A racist, hate filled man holds elected office for thirty years. A war happy, profittering buffoon holds the highest elected office for eight years. A nomination came down to which would you rather have, a woman or a black ( who is really half black ) man, never mind the actual qualifications of either. People protest at the funerals of soldiers, actors, politicians. People picket businesses over labor issues, or whatever thier beef might be. Gays, Lesbians and transgendered people parade all across the country one month out of the year.
I love being American.

Each day I'm getting stronger.  I know there is nothing I can do if you don't love me anymore.  It doesn't mean that it hurts any less.  It just means that I'm powerless and need to move on.  I'm sure you are with her this weekend.  The weekend we had been planning to spend together.  Everyone else was expecting me to be there...and now you are showing up with her.  Thanks again for screwing me over, asshole.

Dad, i know what you're doing to mom. I know that you and your mistress are gaslighting mom so no one will believe her when she says you're abusive. I know you hide your tracks so no one can prove anything. I know you want her out of the picture so you can keep all the money for yourself.

You can be as fake as you want around others, but you've never been able to fool me. I always knew what a cruel, conniving, abusive, two-faced bastard you are. Don't think I don't remember what you did to my brother when he tried to talk to SS. I'll never let you get away with what you're doing to mom. I'll go public with the information I have if I must, but I never want to see that smug, self-satisfied grin on your face again. I will continue to fight until justice is served.

This seems to be a secret, but if Brett Favre was black he would've been run out of football years ago.  I love how Brett Favre can abuse drugs, alcohol, and blame his teammates when he's not doing all that well himself, yet be Mr. All American Boy and have ESPN all over his jock.  Guys like Darryl Strawberry and Dwight Gooden did the same thing (without calling out their teammates) and they're pariahs.  


For most of the last 10 years, the guy has barely been a league average quarterback - 1999, 2000, 2005, 2006 - QB ratings in the 70s (3 of them in the LOW 70s), 1998 and 2002 - QB ratings in the mid '80s.  Look it up.  The Packers should've told him "Thanks, but no thanks" and handed the ball to Aaron Rogers 2 years ago.  

I try to be self-reliant because I'm a feminist and I don't like to burden people. But secretly I like the idea of a chivalrous man who protects and fights for his lady fair. I like being swept off my feet by a knight in shining armor. I like a guy putting his arm around me at concerts to protect me from the crowd. I like a guy touching the small of my back to guide me through the crowd, making sure I stay close by. It feels so safe and sexy.

I really really just want to let go and give myself to you entirely.

But as it stands at the moment, if this does end in a few weeks as it might possibly have to i can walk away with a wistful smile and accept that the timing was wrong.

If I give myself wholly to you and it ends I'm afraid I will be lost and disillusioned all over again.

And this time it will be all my own fault!

you are amazing and I love being around you!
how much do i just want to let go and fall....

Brett Favre, don't break the hearts of Wisconsin.  Stay retired.  We love you, but it's time to stick to your word.  Enjoy your kids and family and don't tarnish your reputation.

I really want to call 1-800-SUICIDE but i'm too afraid my mom would see it on my cell phone bill and get angry at me.

She thinks depression is stupid and a thing that teenagers 'do to themselves for attention.'

This seems to be a secret: George Washington was not the first president of the United States, John Hanson technically was.

Also 4th July, people think that was when the Declaration of Indipendance was signed...no that was the 2nd July....or the Boston Tea party...nope sorry 17th December.

4th July was picked at random.

I want to kill myself more with each passing day.


And its all thanks to you, mom.

i much prefer crushes over relationships.  less messy.

I want to be less bitter and self absorbed. My four old daughter is teaching me so many things about how to be a better person. I have often felt that I can learn as much . or more from a child, than I can teach them.

  My secret: you might think that I am a nice easy going person, but inside I am full of rage, hate and sarcasm.

  Little by little, I am gaining victory over my faults!

I'm getting only drunk every other night.   Trust me, this is a vast improvement.

Yeah thats right.  I was at the bar that night.  You hadn't seen me in over 5 months.  And yes I walked right past you and I could hear you calling out my name.  And thats right,  I saw you by the corner of my eye walking out the bar because I shunned you in front of your friends.  And yes I noticed you  noticing people saying hello to me and cruising me.  You want to act like a little bitch then I'll ignore your ass.  The next day you texed me.  Well, well, well.  Look who coming around.  I'll win this game. Yeah I still love you.

That one night when we talked about love
you said you loved me then
you asked if I loved you I
asked if you met love love
you laughed at me and said no
I actualy think I might love you though
I am too scared to tell you
you might just laugh at me

I hooked up with this guy who has a girlfriend. I feel like such an idiot. But the thing is, I didn't know until he said yeahhh I kinda have a girlfriend which was after we had initially hooked up. I feel so stupid but my friends keep saying that it wasn't my fault cause I didn't know. Ughhhh I never wanted to be that girl

I dont want:
love
sex
money
a nice car
a nice house

The only thing I want is a friend. I'm so lonely :(

It dawned on me today that what has been carrying us is me not you. I am the one that always makes the calls or to some extent makes contact with you. If you truly loved me you would have moved here and you didn't. Another sweet talking musician. what a fucking shock! And the smart girl that does a stupid thing and falls for you and believes everything you say. You are a cheater, a liar and a shark. I can't believe how you tried to hustle me to get you in contact with my friend in order for you to get him to sign you. Prick! I'm so glad I took charge and called you on it today and told you "have you no shame? you are hustling me while I'm trying to tell you a story?!" You said you weren't but I know a hustle when I see one. Then I had to tell you that the last time I tried to help you with your career I got shit rubbed on my face and I want no involvement in helping you. I told you out of sight out of mind living as far apart as we do and you couldn't keep it a secret that you were screwing someone behind my back? I had to find all her messages to you because I was managing your site thanks for making me feel like a fool. You're a self-centered bastard. So no I don't ever want to help you in anyway with your music and I hope to god that you don't look up my friend and use my name in your correspondence to get him to sign you. Fuck you struggle like everyone else. You had your chance at the top and you took it for granted.
I wish the best luck in life for you but I'm not helping. What have you done for me except taken advantage of my kindness and mistaken it for weakness. I almost ended up in a psych ward because of all your lies. Talking to you today just brighten up my view of what a selfish prick you are and I know I deserve better. I am going to stick to my guns and not keep in contact with you anymore no matter how sad or lonely I get. You don't truly and unconditionally love me and I deserve someone who can give me that with all the honesty in their hearts. As far as being friends why? what's the point? And I already have enough friends, true friends that love me and care for me and would never put me through pain like you have only for crumbs of affection.
I am glad I have cavecanum to get this out because I don't anyone knowing that I was still sad over you and that I had contact with you. As of today darling you are dying in my heart, you don't deserve or really worked hard to earn it anyway...

I need to move on from you. You won't be honest.

20 years ago when I was first dating, if a girl was about to dump me I could get my revenge by poking holes in her diaphragm. That way the next guy to come along could get the bitch pregnant.

But times have changed. These days, what am I supposed to do, poke holes in her birth control pills? All these sluts now seem to prefer the Pill. They take all my fun away.

I asked my guy friend to rape me. B.c I knew it was the only way to get anywhere w. him. Ive loved him since 5th grade. My 1st love. And I think I will always love him.

This SUCKS!

In the daytime my wife says if I want sex I will have to wait until the evening because she is too busy.

In the evening she says she is too tired and I should have thought to mention sex during the daytime.

She sucks.

i told everyone that i was going to see the fireworks show and agreed that i also hoped the weather would clear up. what they didn't know was i had to watch the fireworks on tv by myself in my apartment. not one of those people i told even offered me to go out with them...

i wish i had real friends.

We should have been watching the fireworks together tonight.  Unfortunately, your dick chose somebody else.  I'm sure your heart would have chosen me.  Fuck you.

Fireworks are fucking boring. I DON'T get it.

God I fucking hate people who nag. Ask me once and I will take care of it. Sorry if it is not done the second you ask you self centered shithead. Maybe just maybe I was doing something else at that moment. But ask me again and again and again and you are going to get hurt.

I don't want to be with u ne more  I moved on and I found the greatest guy ever who cares about me and treats me how I deserve to b treated. To u I'm just to fool around with but its done. I want to b ur best friend still I do sincerely I do . And I want u to be happy with ur ex. Because u still love her I can tell. Just go go back to her. And ill b here as ur friend.

1 year 6 months today.
I still think about you every day, but I know I made the right choice. I was so far away inside by then, and you...well, you always were far away. It would have been a lie. Living a lie for the rest of our lives is not acceptable, not acceptable for either of us. Please reconsider your wish to have someone by your side when you die that can honestly say they have never cheated on you. That is asking too little. You should hope for much more than that, and I'm not talking about a woman who keeps her damn figure. I'm talking about real love. Please look for someone who shares your interests, not someone who will be your "yes" woman. Being cowed by you is not the same as being loyal.

I wish you the best, and I hope one day you will be honest with yourself enough to open up to someone.

-L

Teddy bear~

I'm sorry, I know you didn't want to hear it, but you had to know. Everything is going to be okay.

Love
~Your bear.

Hey Asshole.  You're not as smart as you think you are.  I know you've been seeing her.  I knew it 3 months ago.  I'm letting you dig your own grave.  You and your morally-corrupt friends.  You will all self-destruct soon.  I see a major falling out between you and just about everyone you know.  They are all on to you.  You will fuck up this relationship just as you did the last one, except this time you won't be forgiven.  You will have pissed off so many people by then that you will be on your own.  Don't you notice that all your women friends have backed away from you.  They know what an ASS you are.

I read all these secrets
about how one person has fallen out of love with the other
I re-read it tons of times,to try catch a clue or hint of the time we spent together
Im torn between my feelings
I want you to still love me
but I dont want you too
I want us to move on...I want to love someone else
but I feel safe with you, you know my past
you kno why I act like I do
you know why Im scared of certin things

I love you...and I always will
please let me go...cause Im too scared to make the first move

After talking to you today I realize even more so OUR love is dead. My love for you isn't...
I have been wrestling with the idea of seeing you again when I go on vacation with my friend to the city you live in. Even one night I say but after talking to you today I realized that I am going to go and have the best time that I can and not contact you. Let sleeping dogs lie or I'm gonna wake up with fleas.

We're over we have been over for a long time and there is no sense in beating a dead horse. As much fun as you and I have had it's not worth me going into another deep depression again. I can't have you because you don't make the effort to move here and really we fight like crazy. The way you talked to me today shows to some extent you want to lead me on and you know better. I know your path as fun as it is at the end only leads to tears and heartbreak.

You think  I will speak or see you again someday soon,my secret: today was the last time I will allow any contact with you. Have a nice and successful life...

I will work on remembering you fondly instead of missing you...

1 year 7 months today.
Still miss you every day.

Fuck castor oil.

I'm really glad Jesse Helms finally hurried up and died. The world is a very slightly better place without him.

At work today I almost set a garbage can on fire.

It saddens me that most children in America are growing up without knowing the real reason behind most of our holidays.

You know what?  You were absolutely right.  I AM smarter than you.  And YES, I would get tired of you.  I didn't believe it could be true, but it is.  So go find your stupid bimbo woman that will make you feel all manly.  In the meantime, I will be working on me and getting ready to meet the man that has the balls to be with me.

Oh...speaking of balls...WHY DON'T YOU GROW SOME!

I'm a liar. I lie to everyone. I've even lied to you. Twice.

The second was when I said I never lied to you.

The first was when I said I never wanted you.

I do. I do want you. More than anything.

Even so, other than those hand-in-hand lies, I have never lied to you...

I think you are a dick for going out of your way to meet my mother and my family. You even talked to my dad. You told me you loved me for 3 years. You suck.

I do love you. Whether you know this is me or not. I love you, and that's all that matters. I'd wear your ring with pride and tell everyone who asked me about it all about you and how wonderful you are. I loved people before, but you--YOU are the first who has truly loved me in return. Thank you, so, so much for being beautiful, fantastic you.

I'm in love with my best friend's boyfriend. And I've been trying to break them up. And I feel bad. But I want him more than she ever wil

I've lived in this same apartment for nine years. I have never once flown a flag on the 4th of July .. not because I didn't want to, but because I just never got around to buying a flag and installing the mounting bracket. This morning thought I got up early, mounted the bracket to the doorframe of my little deck, and mounted my new flag there. It seems to be the only flag flying today over the little pond at my complex. I'm just a little bit proud of this. I wish I'd done this much, much sooner.

I love my country and I love our flag.

I would get plastic surgery if I could afford it. On my arms.

I always said I don't want kids now and may never want them in the future. You're the first person to challenge that notion - but I'd only be willing if you were the father.

I think it would be hugely ironic and quite neat if England invaded America on independance day...

He has forever wasted any respect I had for him and any regard I had for his opinions and judgements.

I will have to keep reminding myself of that, so that next time he is a total asshole to me, it won't upset me as much.

Happy Indpenedence Day!  My independence from you, the man that tried to ruin me.  You see, I'm free from your drama and your manipulation.  From your narcissistic ways.  Free from feeling like I was just never enough.  You have no idea what a favor you did to me when you broke it off.  Yes, I hurt for a long time, but now I realize that it was all about you.  I was the most fabulous girlfriend in the world and someday, someone much more deserving than you will have me!  So, Happy Independence Day to me!

Women...you all deserve a man that loves you and loves you alone.  Don't settle for "ok".  Save yourself for the one that is crazy about you as well.  The one that will hold you above all others and be faithful to you.  I gave up 5 years of my life to the wrong man.  Trust your gut, listen to your radar - it is telling you something.  Be secure in who you are and that you are worth it!  We all are!

My girlfriend and I haven't had sex in about 2 months. She pushes me away when I try to kiss her and would never dream of kissing me. She doesn't like to cuddle with me and absolutely insists on staying up hours and hours later than me. She's always awake when I'm asleep and asleep when I'm awake. Her work shifts are constantly "being switched" and she's always at least half an hour late. She starts fights and criticizes me every chance she gets.

I'm sure she's not cheating on me.......

Everytime I walk up the stairs your scent is the first thing that hits me, and every time I smell you my heart cries a tiny bit. I know you like her, and she's an amazing girl. You deserve each other; I won't fight for you.

But damn, you smell so fucking amazing.

I'm so sad.  I still miss you.

It pisses me off that I probably can't get a shitty teenage type job at 21 because im not some skanky 20 year old girl with huge tits to lure the managers to hire me. Fuck those girls, Your only here cuz they wanna FUCK you, or have you as eye candy around. Im sorry manager types if you see me as "competition" or whatever. Its a shame I can't climb the ranks of life because you wont give me a chance and you decided to hire dumb high school girls over me.
i don't meant to sound Fucking retarded but this job search has gone on too long. .
FUCK,

Please trust in me.

I will always love you.

I feel lost...


should I believe you...
will you ever tell me the truth?